I really want to be a positive person and be all pom-pommy and focusing on the great things but man, I am getting my ass handed to me at every turn lately. I could bullet out the reasons why life is uh, challenging these days, but it's hard in light of Newtown to see my struggles as anything but well, life and to not feel even a small sense of guilt for complaining about well, living. I don't want to hear it from myself. I'm overwhelmed. I won't be for much longer, hopefully.